You make me smile, even just for a while.

I don't think I've ever had a movie impact me as much as the movie August Rush did. I'm not saying that I relate exactly to the story line at all. And that I can even play an instrument, I just know that music can effect you as strongly as it does the boy in the movie.

This movie hit me on so many levels that I laughed and cried all in one. I sat on the edge of my seat the whole time and it wasn't even a suspenseful movie, it just made me smile. The music was amazing.

In all actuality I cannot even begin to explain how great that movie was and how much it affected me. It's also gotten me to listen to a lot more classical…. Like I've become addicted to it.

Yay for movies that open your eyes to a whole world you paid a little attention to.

YAY and Thank you to ex-boyfriends who did the same, and for current friends who also aid in my conquest and love for music.

"The music is all around us, all you have to do is listen"

Reading: Paint it black - Janet Fitch

If Stress were an Element, I’d be that Planeteer

This job has placed me into my element. For the first time in a LONG time I feel needed, I feel… worth it. Sure I get paid shit for money… but when I look at it, the most enjoyment I ever had was when I wasn't getting paid ANYTHING and still put into high stress environments.

I thrive entirely too well on being busy. And I don't mean as in "call after call we're busy" but more the fact that I have 12 tasks at hand and I need to accomplish them all by a certain time. There are deadlines to meet, printing to be done, and all while maintaining an awkward composure that I do.

I had jury duty today, and have to come back on the 27th of November if they decide to keep me based on how I answered the questions I answered today. But following jury duty I had to weave through traffic to get to work.

3 people are out sick and in an office of 5, that leaves one leg standing on its own and that leg certainly can't do everything. So, forgive me if I felt important, a bit of an ego puff coming in.

I love days where I have to answer calls, maintain the mail box and shipping document orders. It makes me go… Damn, I am awesome. When I complete everything and still have time to write up some silly little blog about how multiple tasks make me grin.

All I'm really missing is the IV injection of coffee… the water seems to be working at the moment.

Our minds are as different as our faces: we are all traveling to one destination

You know, over the course of a few days I've had some time to think – something I like to refrain from doing too much because it takes me in the spiral out of control into the dark shadows in my mind. It makes me remember the regrets and all the things that I missed out on doing.

But it also allows me to take a step back, and breathe in everything that I have done in 23-years of life. It allows me to also see what I have to look forward to and who I want to be.

But most of all this weekend allowed me to realize who I'd take with me if I had to give up all of my friends.

I was able to order the people in my life according to importance, and sadly people I figured would be high on my list, fell short. Mostly because I realize what kind of friends they are, and what there priorities are in life and how their life falls in or out of time with mine.

I want to find a basic harmony, where there isn't so much stress, there isn't so much drama – things just are and that's enough for me. ..

"Some people come into our lives and quickley go. Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same."