I’ve got about 48 hours before I make my life altering flight to a “new” life in New Jersey. I have to say, through the past couple of weeks I have been thinking a lot about my decision to make the move.
I know in part that I am upsetting my family in doing this venture so quickly without much time to prepare, however this isn’t something I have been thinking about just recently, in fact its something I’ve wanted for quite some time now. Only now is it becoming a reality for me.
While thinking about all the choices I have made in my past, both good and bad I wish I could assure my family that I have never felt so confident in a decision in my life. And I know that the road ahead means there will be quite a few battles but there isn’t anything that life can throw at me that I wont be able to handle, I’ve survived thus far.
On the other hand, I feel a bit guilty for finally standing up and saying “I am going to live my life.” Because I have always had my choices extremely swayed by family members in that I did certain things because I knew it was what they wanted.
I am extremely co-dependent and I feel like this move will make me step away from the comfort zone that I have found and find out who I really am. As of late I have been questioning myself and the very core that I stand for.
I am thankful for the people who got me this far, a list that is long; but now it is time for me to take that leap and learn to fly.
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