It's a foot in your face or its looking like rain...

It’s true that you never truly understand loneliness until the night seems to creep in. Lately I’ve been feeling pretty detached form society. Again, I find comfort in the warmth, darkness and solitary feeling of my room.

I have a lot of speculations on why I’ve been feeling them, most of them just seem to be the same regular demons that manage to creep their way into my mind. But I’ve noted that I’ve become accustom to certain people being around, being a constant that when they’re no longer a constant I start to feel detached. And then the demons really crawl in. As a pretty self-sufficient lady, it kills me to feel this type of dependency on another person, but then you grow used to them being there.

“Get used to a feeling, used to a friend, start taking for granted the sight and the scent. One day it’s over alone in your skin, how do you begin again?” – Ryanhood (Used To)

It’s always hard for me to make connections with people because I’m so guarded that it’s definitely a process to get past, and the rejection I feel once I do let those guard down and am easily dismissed seems to mess with me more than I care to admit. I suppose that’s the reality, people come and go there isn’t always a constant. We all want a constant though, don’t we?

“There's a look in your eye like you can't even cry, so you sigh.” – Ryanhood (Used To)