Run from Safety...

While talking to a friend earlier he kind of said something that planted a seed inside of my mind. We were talking about quotes and our favorites. I have 2 separate quotes that have been something in my mind for a while now. They’re both ways I like to live my life.

The first one is from a book by Alice Sebold.

"No one can pull anyone back from anywhere. You save yourself or you remain unsaved."

I use this as a way of living not to say that you can’t trust anyone but at the end of the day you have yourself and only yourself, being self sufficient in that you don’t expect others to fix your issues. Other’s may aide, but in the end only you can make the changes necessary.

The second is from a book called Running from Safety.

"You find what you love and you learn everything about it. You bet your life on what you know and you run from safety"

The idea is that you take risks, and run from safety. So of course he throws me off and makes a statement/question. “You say you live your life avoiding complacent in everything else but you found that it was okay for you to have that in your relationships?”

It sort of floored me. Because I do live my life as if nothing can touch me. I run from safety every time. And yet in the past I have found myself in these toxic and complacent relationships and because of what? Because staying was easier than starting over, staying was easier than admitting defeat. Staying meant I wasn’t alone. Granted, I’ve since become comforted in the idea of being by myself and even more comfortable in who I am, the reality is I accepted that I didn’t deserve more and allowed myself to be in this “Safety Zone.”

I don’t know, something about the question really stung. The truth is a bitch.