So after a bizarre dream I had last night I woke up with my brain already drilling me with questions and thoughts.
It could be the stresses I already have with current life situations that I have a habit of putting myself in out of my lack of judgment or ability to have poor judgment.
What kind of reject am I if someone with major problems doesn’t even want me? Its like, if I can’t get the hinky one eyed reject, what makes me think I’ll ever get anyone better?
I’ve thought about how I try to hold on to relationships that I have for whatever stupid reason, and as I think back on them, I wonder to myself why?
I’m pissed off that people can fall in love with “glorified” personas of me, but not me.
Am I that so unhinged that the only thing I can attract are weirdoes who just want me for sexual reasons? - don’t get me wrong I like sex, I just like it more with meaning, Yea, I’m such a girl for that reason. Heaven forbid I want to be seen as more than a sex object.
Do I have a sign that says “Use me” – I’m tired of allowing myself to be such a doormat to people.
Must work on that.
Also, Quote of the Week:
“When people talk behind your back it’s because you are too much of a coward to know the truth and turn and face them and stand up for yourself.” – Myself
(I may have jumped the guns on my blatant and retarded post before.)
1 comment:
Hinky one eyed reject is hilarious... and it's not that you're a doormat, it's that you want people who are completely self absorbed to love you. The people you go after will only ever think of themselves; they don't care about anyone else.
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