This Emo moment brought to you by the Color Purple.

Is it weird that I can find a song to fit the moment? Any moment at all…So its really no wonder that as I’m sitting here in what I call “one of my moods.”

The song that I can find to fit the perfectly with how I’ve been feeling since the holidays are approaching is actually an Avril Lavigne song…

Nobody’s Home

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what’s wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
That's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

A lot of melancholy feelings about the Holidays coming up because I’m so used to being with family, I am used to the tradition. I’ve never truly spent a holiday alone before and ever since the Incident, I’ve felt very secluded from my family (with reason.) but very disappointed in myself.

I’ve been trying focusing my attention on work and trying not to let it bother me. I know the person I am, and I know how when I let things get to me, they take me down far. So I built these walls to distract me from myself and to guide myself into a happier life, but my walls are seemly breakable.