But believe me, I'm not helpless

"I feel like a loser, I feel like I'm lost. I feel like I'm not sure if I feel anything at all. But believe me, I'm not helpless, I just need someone to love. So my situation's rough. That just makes me a dumb human, like you"

I had a rough day yesterday. And by rough I mean after I finished reading most of a depressingly sad but inspiring book, I slept.

I slept for 12 hours. The day before, I slept for 12 hours. And the day before that, I slept for 12 hours. All day time hours.

I recognize that I am lonely, and I recognize what's going on, but I can't seem to make myself move. I can't seem to make myself go out and enjoy the life going on about me. I just hide myself in the basement, clicking endless links for hours, reading depressing books and sleeping.

I keep thinking that eventually I'll be done feeling this way and ready to come out of the dark. And I'm rather conflicted in my feelings as I feel like I'm a worth while person, but I can't even get myself to eat properly and get out.

A temporary escape. It's not permanent and I know it will eventually pass, but in the mean time, I'd just like to sleep.