Saturday, November 25, 2006

to affect sharply with some sensation or emotion, as of cold, pain, or grief

I’m not a cutter. I don’t burn myself. In fact the only “self-mutilation” I do really is piercing and tattoos, and they have become less taboo than they used to be. And you’re not considered to have some sort of mental issue because you have tattoos or piercings.

However, I think my mentality is a bit skewed. I don’t really cause too much harm to myself. But when I get overwhelmed with stress or anxiety I tend to get tattooed and/or pierced...which I’m sure is some sort of psychologically messed up mentality... The justification I have for all of this is that I generally want these things, its just I don’t usually do them until I feel entirely too overwhelmed with stress and/or emotions.

So I’ve pierced myself.

I’ll have to say chewing has become an obstacle for me. I have rather small bottom teeth, so the flat end of my labret piercing hits right at the top of my teeth. That makes things a bit more difficult.

This is a problem, because when most people chew, they tend to chew rather carelessly. Unfortunately this has become something I cannot do. Each bite I take is taken into careful consideration and slowly chewed as to not get carried away and snag my lip ring on my teeth… because that’s really not the coolest feeling in the world.

It really is the simple things in life that you realize…. Like who’d have thought I’d have to be so careful when I chew… and not even in that “I’m eating a bag of chips in class, I don’t want to crunch too loud” kind of careful.

Ah well, I look cute so I don’t care.

2 comments:

The Bewildered Bride said...

When I found out you got pierced again I totally almost said, "Stressed?" I know you too well...

Anonymous said...

I used to chew with my mouth open (I didn't really care). During high school my friends went after me every single day. Lets just say I chew with my mouth closed now and it bothers me when people chew with their mouth open.