...All by myself I need to get around this...

So I got word Sunday night that I needed to be out by the 1st of January…. A lot of time that left me. I know I don’t have the money for the move in fees and first months rent on a place. So I hit panic mode. This for me is a little different from what it used to be… So instead of throwing myself on the bed/floor and sobbing uncontrollably and thinking worse case scenario, I now sob uncontrollably while trying to find a solution.

So that’s better Yeah?

I found a solution, well I have a friend who was gracious enough to allow me to move into his place this weekend so I can just get out of the place as soon as possible and then be rid of Jamie and her issues. Thank God. It is going to be a bit more than I pay now and my only new concern is how I’m going to pay it. I have the money; I just won’t have much for Christmas presents. Granted I have like 2 more I have to pay for, if I give the full 450 out of my next check I will only have 410.00 leftover and that has to pay for gas/food/cell phone and Christmas….. This is how it will break down.

- Payout -
Rent: 450.00
Gas for car: 100.00 for two weeks
Food for two weeks (for just me usually): 80-100.00 (max, usually only 50 for two weeks, I just put aside 80-100.00)
Cell phone: 80.00
Court Ordered Program: 100.00

Totals: 830.00

Paycheck – 860.00

That leaves me with 30.00 for Christmas… NOT good. So uh, that’s some stress on my mind. I don’t know what to do about it at this point. My Next paycheck after Dec 22nd will be January 5th. So we shall see how everything pans out. Wish me luck that I don’t sink.

I miss some people…. A little more than I should, two people in particular.

And I’m finding myself falling for someone…Crap.