I might come off harsh?

So after a fantastic night (More on that later) I came home to a message in my myspace inbox from my sisters friend Kristin (who she has known since the 4th grade.) Normally, I would think nothing of it, however, this particular message was rather degrading towards me.. So I've decided to copy and paste the note I recieved, and then my response to it...


It would be nice to see a picture of you where your not posing for yourself and trying to look seductive. Just one....and the "heaven" blog...its a nice idea, but remeber that life is what you "make of it" too....and it's disheartening and unnerving to see JUST how you've responded to your current court situation and the outcome of that. Life is hard. You did something very wrong,...and it seemed that you resented that you got caught and had to face consequences....then on top of that, your not even grateful for having gotten off so easy. Your ONLY being ordered to attend...basically, a place where you can only become a better person if you'll open up your mind and get honest just a tiny bit. Self improvement rocks! Learning about yourself and how to be a better you....whats so bad about that? You CAN take something from EVERY session...just one thing....that can speak to you or change your life....but you've been unwilling from the get go. Its very, very sad. You have MANY issues that you need to work on before you are a healthy, stable person. Anyone reading your myspace could see that. These are only my opinions and I ONLY say something because I care. If I didn't, I wouldnt waste my time. Just about every time I read your blog or see a new picture, I wanna ring your pretty neck. There is so much more to you.....and you can be so fake and so frustrating sometimes. Just try a little honesty,openmindedness and willingness.....it'll get you a long way! Sorry if this seemes harsh ....call it tough love! Loves -Kristen

My Response:

To be honest with you, I'm not sure how to respond without saying fuck you, because I don't want to come off THAT rude...But I will let you know that What I do on my myspace is my business.

You know nothing of my health or the "situation" I am in... In fact, your opinion on my current situation means exactly dick to me, because I'm not sure you even know the situation.

Actually, I know you only know half the situation. You know the situation in which you were told/relayed to by my sister, who doesnt even know. Its all bias and one sided. I may have gotten off "easy" on the crime that was or wasn't committed, but as far as you know, I'm innocent.. unless of course you pre-judged me, in which case I might suggest you get help and go at it open mindedly to better improve yourself.

What I am doing may have been seen as "easy," but I can assure you it has NOT been easy. And thats pretty much all you need to know. Furthermore, if you actually took the time to READ you would actually see that I did say I learned something from the sessions at the "Circle Jerk."

In fact, I'm not sure where you are gathering your information that I am not taking this situation as a learn from it experience... Because I have not said one word about not trying to improve myself... and I would also like to add that I am also the one who exersised my ability to admit fault and apologize for any wrong doing, of course, you would that, if you had actually taken the time to ask me, instead you just pass judgement and went off on me as if you really knew "the big picture."

Furthermore, I pose for myself because to me, I am beautiful and my vanity is my vanity. I do not press it upon you. I do not make you look at the photos, you do that on your own. If you dont like it, don't look. Simple as that.

I take what I want because I like them. I know for a fact that I would not post a photo I did not like. So if a photo I take seems "seductive" or as if I am posing for myself, Thats because I am. Those are the pictures I like to take. I enjoy being/looking seductive. I enjoy posing for pictures, because in reality, thats all anyone ever does...

My heaven blog was more a thoughts after reading a book... It was not something set in stone, it was merely a analyzation of what I got out of the book and how I was connecting it to my thoughts...I am well aware that life is what I make it, but thank you for again reminding me, I appreciate that you took the time to assure me of such information.

Whats disheartening and unnerving is how you have responded to what has been relayed to you, making me seem like I am the only person who has ever screwed up. I admit, I have screwed up. I take full responsibility for my actions. But as I have said, you know nothing of what I am doing to "fix" my mistake, or the stuff I have to (or will have to) go through because I "got off easy"

So until you are truely able to see what is really there. I mean clearly see the whole picture (as you have suggested to me) I'd like you to keep your tough love to yourself, because if you knew anything of me, anything at all, you'd know that I can damn well give myself my own tough love without your overly opinionated, one-sided imput.

Thank you.

I'll see to it that your request for one "decent/unposed/un-seductive" picture is posted....

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I may have come off as a jack ass, but this girl knows exactly dick as I had explained. Her actions were unwarrented and quite frankly pissed me off... As if you couldn't tell.