Somebody that I used to know...

Did my favorite song for the months of March-July really just become my reality? I think so.

Let go Jennifer. Let Go.

“But you didn’t have to cut me off, make out like it never happened and that we were nothing. I don’t even need your love, but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough…now you’re just somebody that I used to know… ”

I keep building up hope, I keep holding on. I need to stop. I need to stop holding on to this idealism. This romanticism that my life will be like a movie, which he’ll discover we need to be together. No one will be with me as long as I am where I am. No one. Not him, not anyone.

Self-talk: I need to get rid of those who objectify me. Have some fucking respect for yourself! We are all better than someone who constantly objectifies you.

Do not become a victim.

Choose life.

Choose better.

I deserve it.

I need it.

I can have it.

Why is this so hard for me to actually do? I know what I need to do, but I can’t do it. Emotionally my brain just shuts down all logic. I do not want to be bitter or resentful, I want to be happy.

I juts don’t want to feel like someone discarded.